Saturday, April 28, 2018

Friday, March 30, 2018

Lenten Songs

2 of my favorite songs that are commonly sang during Lent.

I made my own versions coz I just feel like singing them today.

First song is by Fr. Eugene O'Reilly, a song about the prodigal son, where the father and the son has a dialogue. 

Father I have sinned,
help me find my way.
Remember not my sins,
just let me hear you say::
I forgive you, I love you 
You are mine, take my hand. 
Go in peace, sin no more, 
Beloved one.
Father I have turned,
my back and walked away
Depended on my strength
and lived life my own way
Father I have closed,
my heart to those in need.
Thought only of myself,
a victim of my greed.
Father I have loved,
if love’s the word to use.
I’ve played so many games,
they’ve left me so confused.
Father I’ve returned,
I’m home with you to stay.
Standing at your door,
knowing that you’ll say
got the lyrics from this site

warning: don't listen to my version of the song if you don't really want to ruin your day lolz. I'm not a professional singer and I have a very low voice so my version is low tone. But, I love my voice so I'm going to share this in my blog. 

My version:
sorry about the barking dogs and other noises in the background.

2nd song I love during Lent is Hosea - Come Back to Me

Come back to me with all your heart
Don’t let fear keep us apart
Trees do bend though straight and tall
So must we to others call

Long have I waited for
Your coming home to me
And living deeply our new life

The wilderness will lead you
To the place where I will speak
Integrity and justice
With tenderness
You shall know.

My Version: same warning as the first song :D

I felt like singing for Jesus today so I added this Tagalog song which I love singing to Him, to thank Him for what He has done for me and the only thing I can offer is my heart and soul.

Saturday, March 24, 2018

Sapat na at Higit pa

Di mangangamba sa kawalan
pagpapala mo’y laging laan
di matatakot sa panganib
pagkat naririyan ka palagi

Di matitinag sa pagsubok
ang pagsama mo’y tiyak at lubos
di mapipigil sa pag-awit
pagkat ikaw ay mabuti
pagkat ikaw ay mabuti

Ikaw ang aking pastol hindi magkukulang
sapat na at higit pa

Biyaya mo’y sagana at umaapaw
sapat na at higit pa

Sapat na sa lahat kong pangangailangan
higit pa sa lahat kong inaasahan

wala na ngang mahihiling pa
pagkat ika’y sapat na
ika’y sapat na at higit pa


This is one of my favorite songs at the moment. This song was taken from Psalm 23, that famous Bible verse that I've known since I was young: Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for You are with me.

We sang this song during our Bible study last Thursday. It was the first time that I heard of this song so I had to search for it in youtube. Frankly speaking, I don't like the original female version coz it's too hyper and high, but I love to hear the male version and I found one that was good here.

I'm glad Pastor Wacky shared this with us, I love this song which reminds me that I don't need anything else but the Lord. You are enough God in my life and I won't lack anything.


*this is just my own translation, there may be better ones on the web

English Translation:
Enough and more

Will not have fear of lack
Your blessings are reserved
Will not fear danger
Coz You are always here

Immovable in trials
You are surely and absolutely with me
Will not be stopped in singing
'Cause You are good
'Cause You are good

You are my shepherd I shall not want
Enough and more

Your blessings are abundant and overflowing
Enough and more

Enough for all my needs
More than everything I expected

There's nothing more I can hope for
For You are enough
You are enough and more

Sunday, March 18, 2018

My Thoughts on Catholic Girl's Survival Guide for the Single Years

I haven't finished reading this yet, but I just want to record my thoughts on this book, my favorite book at the moment. 

It was printed in year 2012, but it still is applicable today, six years after it was written. It's like a perennial book since it's rooted in Catholic teachings.

I read a sample from amazon and I really wanted to buy it because I felt like I found a friend who understands my struggles. And I am right, this book is so easy to read. How Emily wrote it, felt to me like she was directly speaking to me. I love it. Well, she was 35 when she wrote it. I'm 36, will be 37 in november,(wow nearing 40. I think in 2021, I will think that 40 is the new 20 lolz. j/k. ), I can relate with everything I've read so far in the book. So, I'm 36, single, never been married, nbsb, but still thinking that marriage is my vocation lol.

As she mentioned on her book, the pool of men that I can choose from is small, since I'm a practicing Catholic single girl and I feel there's no one boy here who could understand no pre-marital sex, no promiscuity (yes, even in a predominantly Catholic population, most guys here regard sex as dictated by movies, they don't really know about the Catholic teachings, nor do they care I assume), my cousin said I'm part of the 0.01% who still believe in what I believe in (I think the church here really failed in teaching our generation about why we believe what we do as Catholics), but I still trust in God and He will lead me to the right person or the guy will find me first, idk. However, there's also a part of me who likes this guy who's not at all my ideal guy, so I need help with that too, I thought I already let it go, but I still couldn't, may blogpost about it on another day.

Back to the book, I skipped to chapter 7 actually because it was entitled: what to do when it hurts. I need advice on that so I read it before I started again on chapter 1.

If you have been single for years and you want to know how to handle when it aches, then I recommend skipping to that chapter so you can get her tips on what to do. I love her tips, but I couldn't mention it here, she doesn't specify in her book that it's ok to quote the book. Neways, if you like the sample which you can read in amazon, you'll not be disappointed. The way she explained each tip, I love it, I highlighted the paragraphs. She is really a great writer, very clear and concise, very easy to get what she means. 

On other chapters in the book, I love that she explains the meaning of vocation, the single life, and the authentic femininity. 

I'm gonna continue reading the book...

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Friday, March 9, 2018

Lenten fast

my fasting would be with some of my online activities... 
taking a break from blogging, twitter and facebook

I'll be back on first week of April

Update: Mar 17, 2018
Changed my mind about the blogging and twitter thing, I'm going to continue blogging during lent and go to twitter, but I can forego facebook.

I can't believe I lasted a week without logging in to twitter and facebook lolz. FB was easy to ignore since I had a bad experience with it recently, but twitter I really miss. Then while I was reading some books, I kept on thinking of what I would write on my blog when I get to go back to it. 

Then I had an opportunity to do this online shop from Human Heart Nature, my favorite company atm. I'm going to try to experiment with doing product reviews. I'm already a "dealer" so I get a discount when I buy their products and can sell them at srp. 

I want to try different things but I don't know if I can take the bad feedbacks.

Saturday, March 3, 2018

My Takeaways from Neil Gaiman's Speech Part 3

"Life is sometimes hard. Things go wrong, in life and in love and in business and in friendship and in health and in all the other ways that life can go wrong. And when things get tough, this is what you should do. Make good art... ...Somebody on the internet thinks what you do is stupid or evil or it's all been done before? Make good art. Probably things will work out somehow, and eventually time will take the sting away, but that doesn't matter. Do what only you do best. Make good art."

**I haven't had a lot of challenging or difficult days for the past few months, but I remember that when I felt down, and I had all these emotions inside... I wrote poems. But, for now, I don't feel down or I don't have any haters, I feel happy and Mr. Gaiman said to make good art on the good days too, so I don't know what I'm going to write lolz. I'll look for inspirations.

"While you're at it, make your art. Do the stuff that only you can do... ...The moment that you feel that, just possibly, you're walking down the street naked, exposing too much of your heart and your mind and what exists on the inside, showing too much of yourself. That's the moment you maybe starting to get it right."

**I have to remind myself of this over and over again. lolz

"When I agreed to give this address, I started trying to think what the best advice I'd been given over the years was. And it came from Stephen King twenty years ago, at the height of the success of Sandman... ...and his advice was this: "This is really great. You should enjoy it."

And I didn't. Best advice I got that I ignored. Instead I worried about it. I worried about the next deadline, the next idea, the next story. There wasn't a moment for the next fourteen or fifteen years that I wasn't writing something in my head, or wondering about it. And I didn't stop and look around and go, this is really fun.

I wish I'd enjoyed it more. It's been an amazing ride. But there were parts of the ride I missed, because I was too worried about things going wrong, about what came next, to enjoy the bit I was on. 

That was the hardest lesson for me, I think: to let go and enjoy the ride, because the ride takes you to some remarkable and unexpected places."

**I'm going to enjoy this ride towards financial success.


Those are the parts I love from his speech. This is the last part of my blogpost series on Neil Gaiman's speech. You can find my previous posts on this speech below:

part 1
part 2

The complete transcript here.

Saturday, February 24, 2018

First rule in 12 rules for life

I love this book, even though I don't agree with everything he stated. I'm only at the second rule, haven't finished the chapter yet but I just want to write down my thoughts for now on rule number one.

The first rule is to stand straight with your shoulders back. I know it seems simple but even that I realized, I didnt do. I really lack confidence, my bestfriend told me that too. I dont stand up straight and im kinda shy around strangers and dr. peterson was so right when he mentioned awkward pause in conversation. I dont really know how to talk to people comfortably in general. I'm very comfortable when I'm with my close friends and cousins, but when it comes to acquaintances I tend to become self-conscious and the conversations don't have a smooth flow. 

I'm going to practice all the rules in this book and see if there will be changes in my life. I am writing on my notebook my favorite quotes from that book and thoughts I have from what I've read. I noticed when I scanned my writings, that I actually dont have any thoughts lol, I just absorbed his words like a sponge. 

I love that he referenced stories from the Bible but, I dont like some of his conclusions. One example is when he said that the pieta showed female/male dual unity. I actually dont see that in that art, I only see a grieving mother because her son died. I realized, sometimes we really see things on a lens, I see everything with a Christian lens, not sure what lens Dr. Peterson sees the world. I also realized that people can really look at art or things or whatever matter is in front of them and interpret them in a different way than intended by the creator. Pieta was created to show a mother mourning for her son, but Dr. Peterson interprets it differently.

I won't get into it but when he mentioned androgyny of Christ, wtf is my first thought. I guess when people dont experience Jesus in their lives, they are unable to believe the apostles and understand what Jesus Christ taught. I dont want to spend my precious time on this atm, I'll let it be and I hope someday he gets to talk to Catholic apologists like Jimmy Akin, Karl Keating and Tim Staples. 

Anyways, except for parts that I don't agree with, I really love this book, because I think this is what's missing in my life, some kind of structure.... specific rules to follow everyday... I already know what God wants me to follow everyday but, it's so difficult to love even my enemies, difficult for me to love everybody, so I'll start with God and myself first.