Saturday, February 17, 2018

Tolkien's Leaf

This video by father schmidt talks about the story written by J.R.R. Tolkien, the title is "leaf by niggle"

You can watch the whole video to learn more about it.

When I learned about Tolkien's leaf, I really love the message behind the story. Well, I haven't read the whole story, just parts of it in wikipedia, but I love how Fr. Schmidt explained it.

Here's a transcript of the explanation for the leaf story:

The lesson that Tolkien was trying to communicate to us and that Timothy Keller is pointing out in his book on work, is that a lot of us might devote our lives to a great vision, right? We might devote our lives to this great work that just never actually gets fulfilled, that never actually gets off the ground, that never actually gets accomplished. We might never finish the great work that the Lord has placed in our heart…. ….We just kind of like, we live and live and live and work and work and work and then we die and we go, “What’s it all for? All I have is this one leaf to show for this entire life?”

And this is where the virtue of faith, and the virtue of hope, this is where the perspective of God comes in. For the rest of the world, they might say, “Wow, that person wasted their life painting one leaf, but we realize this: a life that’s lived in Christ and devoted to one great thing, whether that great thing is like to teach my class of, you know, fourth graders, or to raise up my kids as best I can or to treat the patients that I see in hospital or in the clinic as best I can, or whatever, maybe to edit videos and maybe it’s, it’s to produce a great content online.

Whatever the thing that you have in your heart, in your mind, wherever you’re working for, even if it’s not accomplished on this earth. We believe, we trust that the Lord can do something with it that radiates through eternity. This is one of the things that we belive as Catholic Christians. There’s no thing that we- you and I can choose to do on this earth and in this life that doesn’t matter. That every good work that you and I try to do, it matters.

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So, every time I see the leaves in a tree, I will be reminded of the leaf story by Tolkien. It will remind me that whatever I dream of here on earth, even if I don't get to see it fulfilled in my lifetime, even if I only accomplished one part of it, if I was able to paint only one leaf in the canvass... God will do something with it long after I'm gone... the leaf will radiate through eternity.

I remember the people who created our constitution, well , it's also the same in the USA, the people who created their constitution wrote it years ago, but still it is being used now and will be used for all eternity as long as there are people willing to fight for their rights and freedom.

Aaron Swartz is also an example of painting a leaf... I think he started a lot of organizations that are helping people online even today. I will read more about him and learn more about his story. Except for the suicide he committed, he is an inspiration to me.

Friday, February 9, 2018

Politics and me

Treebeard: The Ents cannot hold back this storm. We must weather such things as we have always always done.
Merry Brandybuck: How can that be your decision?!
Treebeard: This is not our war.
Merry Brandybuck: But you're part of this world! Aren't you? You must help! Please! You must do something.
Treebeard: You are young and brave, Master Merry. But your part in this tale is over. Go back to your home.
Pippin Took: Maybe Treebeard's right. We don't belong here, Merry. It's too big for us. What can we do in the end? We've got the Shire. Maybe we should go home.

Merry Brandybuck: The fires of Isengard will spread. And the woods of Tuckborough and Buckland will burn. And all that was once green and good in this world will be gone. There won't be a Shire, Pippin.

This is the reason I care about politics and news, all things happening everywhere (in my country and other parts of the world).

Most people (my mom and my relatives included) think that because it doesn't affect their lives now that anything happening in politics or anywhere far from them will never affect them.

Or maybe they think that they can't do anything about what's happening that they can only talk about it and not ever be a "player" in the game, just a spectator.

That's why I love our national heroes, our catholic saints, those new heroes (in my eyes at least) like Satoshi Nakamoto, Aaron Swartz, the Bitcoin Core developers, etc. I don't think that there is a fork in the road (at the moment)  of the core devs where they have to choose between living a comfortable life or fight against the powers that be that will put their lives and their families lives in danger... I don't know, but I think it will come someday...

Our national heroes , our catholic saints, have their own lives to live, they have their own families, they were not people who just came out of nowhere, had the courage and fought for what they think is right, they chose to do it in spite of the dangers.

I don't know yet, how I'm going to affect change in the world, but I will just organize my life first before anything else lolz. Or maybe I'll just remind myself of this:

Inscription on the tomb of an Anglican Bishop in Westminster Abbey:

“When I was young and free and my imagination had no limits, I dreamed of changing the world. As I grew older and wiser I discovered the world would not change –
So I shortened my sights somewhat and decided to change only my country, but it too seemed immovable.

As I grew into my twilight years, in one last desperate attempt, I settled for changing only my family, those closest to me, but alas, they would have none of it.

And now I realize as I lie on my deathbed, if I had only changed myself first, then by example I might have changed my family. From their inspiration and encouragement I would then have been able to better my country,

And who knows, I might have even changed the world.”

I think it was also the point of the new book by Dr. Jordan Peterson, "12 rules for life" to fix your life first before criticizing the world around you. I'm going to buy that book one of these days and maybe it'll be my guide for the year and maybe I'll have the best year of my life in 2018 lolz. But I think I'm going to search for bible verses equivalent of his rules lolz. Idk.

Anyways, back to my point of politics and me, whatever is happening around the world is like a fire burning and the fire will spread and someday it will come to my country and the exact place where I live in. So, if I can do something now, with the limited resources I have, I'm going to do something about it. (of course this will sound woo woo to some people) But first and foremost, I'm going to pray. Mama Mary in the Fatima apparitions had warned against the world war 2 happening and asked us to pray the rosary. Since people didn't do it, ww2 happened... I don't blame them, even today, I can't pray the rosary everyday. I don't really like praying the rosary, it feels so heavy to pray, but maybe someday I'll get over that feeling and pray it devoutly... for now, I'm just going to pray the angel's prayer in the Fatima apparitions:

My God, I believe, I adore, I hope, and I love You. I ask pardon for those who do not believe, do not adore, do not hope, and do not love You.


Most Holy Trinity, Father, Son and Holy Spirit, I adore You profoundly, and I offer You the Most Precious Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity of Jesus Christ, present in all the tabernacles of the world, in reparation for the outrages, sacrileges and indifferences by which He is offended. And by the infinite merits of His most Sacred Heart and the Immaculate Heart of Mary, I beg the conversion of poor sinners.

That's what I'm going to pray for now, plus my personal petitions. And take actions where I can. Oh by the way, I'll never run for any position in the government, I don't want to die at a young age lolz. I can't lie and kiss ass of other people I don't like, so I don't think I'm fit for politics. Maybe when I become a tycoon I'm going to support the politicians I like.

Saturday, February 3, 2018

90-Day Goals

  1. Finish up to Day 80 of my reading the Bible and Cathechism 
  2. 100 unique visits on my timegivenme blog (my new catholic blog which I'm going to develop for a year or so to help me and other catholics grow more in faith)

Performance Goals on #1
  • finished day 4 to 10
  • finished day 11 to 15
  • finished day 16 to 20, etc 

Performance Goals on #2
  • one blogpost on Feb 3
  • one on Feb 10, 17, & 24
  • promote my posts

I got this pattern from the 90 day goal guide sent to us subscribers of

***I've finished Day 4 of my reading goal today.***

Saturday, January 27, 2018

Anvaya Cove

LOVE this place!! it's so beautiful 😍😍😍😍😍
These are 3 of my favorite photos at Anvaya:

We went to Anvaya Cove last December 2017. It's a members only resort at Morong, Bataan. However, members can have guests. My cousin knows a member and so my cousin plus 4, we became the guests. The member doesn't have to be there the whole time with us. After her husband gave us the etiquettes to have while we were there, we were left on our own.

I really enjoyed my stay that day, I hope next time we can stay overnight :) I want to have a night swim there... the pool seems so much more relaxing at night.

I love that the place has free cold water available anytime near the beach, where a person can really feel thirsty.

The locker room and the bathroom are just right beside each other. The showers are in the locker room. Each shower stall is large enough that you would really be comfortable to clean yourself up after a swim. The lockers are huge enough that we were able to fit in all our 4 (or was it 6) bags in one locker.

Of course, this blogpost won't be complete without a selfie :)

my view from where I was sitting when I took that selfie

I love walking along the beach and just listening to the waves of the ocean, so peaceful. If I have time, maybe if we ever do an overnight at a resort, I would walk the whole length of the beach just like I did at Bohol Beach Club back in 2006. That reminds me, I would put a blogpost on that as well. I love Bohol (would love to go back there someday again) and I would love to post my throwback pics when I was still a little bit thin lolz.

Love the beach here coz it's very clean

Some other photos:

I highly recommend this place, it's very beautiful. 

Sunday, January 21, 2018

Triggered by a scene in The Magicians

I was triggered by that one scene in the series that I love watching:

The Magicians.

     I love this series, I can suspend reality and just enjoy the series, I can take the fornication, the gay relationships, the trivial view they have for sex like it's nothing and just do it when you feel like it, the magic stuffs (of course this is a magic series lolz), I know that even if these are all morally wrong, that these are the norms now and that it's going to take awhile to explain to people why these things are wrong... anyways, the one thing I can't take and what triggered me to write this blogpost was the scene where the character basically said that God is not real or that scene where the guy said that there are deities... Of course, I'm Catholic and there is only one True God.

     I think I was triggered by that scene because I really wanted to see a scene on tv series or movies where they are able to refute an argument against the existence of God and win that argument, but I haven't seen that in popular series or movies yet, that's why I want to publish this blogpost to at least defend my belief even though not many people will read this and most don't really care about whether God is real or not because they think it's not important. Actually, sometimes I could care less if the person I'm talking to doesn't believe in God, I'm not the one going to suffer for all eternity. But, sometimes when I'm triggered, I really have to say something and so I have to get this out of my system and into this blogpost.

     If ever you take something away from this blogpost, make it this one: think about Christianity very deeply. If there's only one thing you can get from everything here, I hope you'll get this quote from C.S. Lewis:

"Christianity, if false, is of no importance, and if true, of infinite importance, the only thing it cannot be is moderately important."

Well, you can say that about every other religion, but my faith is in the Christian God. And of course, other people have other beliefs, so a person who thinks that eternal life is important can research every religion in this world and have lots of information and be confused as to what is the "truth". That's why Catholics are told not to ever tell a lie. Or a person can just say, well, f*ck it, why should I care about that, I'm enjoying my life... Well, as C.S. Lewis says it is infinitely important if it's true... Since we cannot determine exactly the truth until we die, we rely on our faith, on our belief, on the information we have around us. I rely on the Word of God.

     I love dissecting the quote of C.S. Lewis because if it turns out that we, Catholics are right and I believe we are, then isn't it logical to treat our religion as important? Eternity is of course eternal lolz there's no ending, so the 80 or 100 yrs you have here on earth, maybe is just one second in that eternity. So, isn't the life we are going to have for eternity more important than the life we have here on earth, but of course, both are important, but the time we have here, is just like an entrance exam for the life we are going to have for all eternity, we can pass to Heaven or fail to Hell.

      I used to be one of those people who believe that God was only made up by people who need someone to rely on, because they can't deal with their own problems themselves. I still believe we can lean on God but no longer believe that He is just an imaginary person. He is real and the resurrection was real. The apostles of Jesus didn't die for a story of a person, they died because of what they saw and they will not deny what they saw with their own eyes.

       Point is, it matters what you choose here in this life. So the game was already won, the only part we're playing is how many will come with Jesus to Heaven and how many will be in hell.... God wants us all, but He will not make us into machines able to do good things because we don't know anything else, that's why we have free will, I'm paraphrasing what C.S. Lewis said....

     I know that we have to fight for freedom, but in reality, we are always free, no one can ever take your "freedom to choose" from you... even if you follow what others want you to do, you are still the one choosing to follow them... so that's why when saints were threatened to be beheaded or whatever they can think of ways to kill them, tortured, burned, remove their fingernails, or whatever torture they can think of, the saints of the Church never wavered, they chose to not renounce Jesus, they can be prisoned, tortured, whatever , but your freedom to choose will always be with you.

     Threats can be your excuse to say "I didn't have a choice" but no, we always have a choice, we just don't want the consequence of the other one that's why we think we don't have any other choice, but the reality is you do have a choice and you choose this one instead of the other.... when you impregnate a woman, you choose to be responsible and be a father to the child or you choose to abort, or you choose to have the baby adopted, or you just choose to leave and not think about it... when you are a Catholic and under threat, you deny Jesus as God , you choose to renounce Him, it's your choice, death (life with Jesus after you die) or life on this earth but not be with Jesus after death.

     Some people 'tolerate' the Catholic view, you have your belief, I have mine... They can accept absolute truth from material things, but they will not accept that there is an absolute truth when it comes to life after death. If a pen is blue it is not red, it is absolutely blue. Well, it's easier to accept because you can see it. Well, the apostles saw Jesus died and come back to life after 3 days and ascended to heaven. They did not die because of a story they made up, they died because they will not deny what they saw with their own eyes. Of course, I did not see what happened at that time, but I believe the apostles.

     (I haven't seen a million pesos yet, but I believe it exists. I haven't been to space and saw the earth revolve around the sun, but I believe it does because of the authorities (science & schools) that said so. That's why Jesus established the Catholic Church, He gave it the Authority to teach on His behalf, to make disciples of all. I haven't seen Jesus nor the apostles but I believe the Church that God Himself established here on earth. I believe the Magisterium, the Bible and the Tradition).

     I think there's a reason why God wants us to say the truth all the time and if we do lie, to confess that sin, not only because the reality that liars go to hell is very true... but maybe he has seen this instance in history where there are people who will bend the truth, make up a story, make the "truth" as you see fit... Maybe God wants to show the world that there is absolute truth by making people be like Him, that He will never lie, He is the Truth, the Way and the Life...

     Actually, I don't trust people who lie, even if they say it's "only" a white lie, it's still a lie, how can you trust a person who says yes when he really means no. Will you trust an organization who lie about their scientific findings? will you trust a researcher if he fake a research? will you trust a person who lies about even a single thing? You will now try to verify everything he says, right? but what about life after death? can you say, ok, i will kill myself first and then come back to life again and when i find out that what he's saying is true, then I can believe him and act accordingly... When you die, there's no going back unless God says it's not yet your time to die. So, basically, we cannot verify if what people say about life after death is true, then how do we know if it's real, how do we know who to trust? Well, I trust those who have been with Jesus and who will not deny him even with threats of death or torture. I trust the authority that comes from the Creator of the universe.

      I think it's logical for God to actually command us not to lie, to always say the truth, aside from being trustworthy, no one will ever doubt a word you say. The Catholic Church teaches us not to lie, when you can't trust anything in this world, you will know for sure that the Catholic Church tells the truth always. I mean the magisterium, the authority, not the people in it. People can lie, but the magisterium never. When you can't trust anything in this world, you can trust in the word of Catholics faithful to the teachings of the Church that Jesus established.

Friday, January 19, 2018

182 lbs wwoooohoooo

had a check up yesterday and I'm 182 lbs, loveeettt

I'm going to continue eating meat and trying to not drink coke everyday.

next stop 170 lbs :)

Saturday, January 13, 2018

Bible Study - Jan 11, 2018

We talked about the Parable of the Talents (Matthew 25:14-30)

Usually I interpret these verses to mean that Jesus was referring to the actual innate talents given to each person and that we should not hide these talents, show the world and give glory to God. However, when we were talking about this earlier in the Bible study, I realized something, maybe the Holy Spirit made me realize it, idk, I thought, well that parable was like the metaphor for God and how He gives blessings to people. He gave different amounts of money to different people. The first two people double the money they got, but the third one hid the money and didn't do anything with it.

I realized, it's like how God blesses each of us. We received blessings in various ways in various amounts. What do we do with these blessings? Like for example, we are given opportunity to work and receive salaries. What do we do with the money we have? Everyone in the world doesn't have the same situation as the other person, every experience of a person is unique, but the one thing we have in common (whether they believe in it or not) is that we are given different amount of opportunities/ blessings by God. At the end of my life, when I die and I meet God and He asked me what did I do with the opportunities He gave me while I was still alive, I would like to think I'd be like the first two servants in the parable who doubled their talents/blessings. I want to double everything that I receive today.

I have to admit that I am kind of lazy and I want to change that. I don't want to be a sloth. It's one of the 7 deadly sins and I know why God is offended by it. I mean how can anyone be given a life here on earth and just waste it on nonsense things? well, who am I to judge on what nonsense is, but I don't want to just sleep all day, I want to be able to enjoy life and of course serve people and God in the process. But, I know I have a lot to learn and a lot of changing to do. I am full of pride, not humble at all and I know this is weird to think but I'm grateful that I have not yet achieved success/ or be wealthy with money, since that would amplify the bad attitudes I have.

I guess I have to change me first, I remember what Jim Rohn said, for things to change I have to change. If I keep myself connected to Jesus, I'll definitely change for the better. He is the vine and I am one of the branches. Remember Psalm 1:3.

I only have a small salary at this time, but I would want to double that at the end of the year and maybe saving in Bitcoin would help me in that aspect or maybe I'll set up a blog that focuses on something (niche) and earn bits/satoshis from that. I'll think of something for sure. I want to take actions, I don't want to hide away the blessings and return them to God without doing anything with it. I want to be productive.

oh, by the way, I started day 1 of reading the Bible and the Catechism for 365 days. It's easy when it's broken down to bits and pieces. Love it! :)

I would have to do that for the bitcoin-earning blog that I'm going to start. Break down the huge goal to little tiny bits. I have no idea what I'm doing, but I'm going to give it a shot. I'll regret it for sure 10 years from now if I don't even try today.

Anyways, back to the parable... The master gave 5 talents to one person and gave 2 talents to another and one talent to the last person... We are given different amount of blessings, we are born rich, or middle class or poor, we are given opportunities to study to different kind of schools, some people are not even able to go to school, we are given opportunities to work, and are given different amounts of salaries, if you compare your salary to other people, you may have higher or lower amount, but the amount is not the important thing, the thing that's important to God (imo) is that did you do something with the blessings/opportunities given to you... are you doing something good/productive with what's in front of you right now?

I would love to hear God say to me when I die and He reads in the Book of Life the things that I did while I was still alive, I want to hear Him say "Well done, good and faithful daughter"