Saturday, November 18, 2017

Jessica Matthews interview on Impact Theory

This was an interview of Tom Bilyeu with Jessica Matthews.


Transcript of her words that I love:
One, there’s the concept of getting to know oneself, and owning that, and then going down a path that fits who you are versus kind of fights against who you are.
*With the blogs, the platform of online blogs giving me a way to share my thoughts, I can be myself. I can follow a path that fits me and not fight against who I am. I can talk about the things I want to talk about and not be limited with the interests of the people around me. I have a chance to connect with people who are interested in the things that I am interested in.*
The first thing that I did was not think too far ahead. So, the idea was instead of imagining from day 1, oh I wanna build an energy company, it was more imagining or really envisioning, why am I getting up in the morning? What's the point of my day?...

...instead of trying to live a successful life, if you aim to have a successful day, if you have 13 out of the 24 hours of your day, if you won those hours, you won the day. If you win most of the days in a week, you won the week. We just need a simple majority here, right? If you win most of the weeks in a month, there you go. Most of the months in a year, most of the years in a life and all of a sudden, look at that, without even trying, you’ve been able to kind of get somewhere.

*I love that thought, to just win the majority of it, not all, just most. I know that I'm not perfect and can only do so much in a day. But, to just push myself to win most of the hours in a day, I think that's doable.*

We all have our struggle, regardless of who we are, whether you’re male or female, black, orange, green, who cares? We all have our struggle, and we all have our privilege. I consider it a privilege to be born of Nigerian parents… …that to me, is privilege, to have parents who believe in you, irrationally so. I feel privileged to have gone to the schools I’ve gone to, right?

In the end, it’s about recognizing the value in our own struggle, being appreciative, and aware of our privilege, so we can have empathy for others, and their experience. We can bridge the gap for them, and then being able to take all of that, and own it… …This is who I am. Hello to who you are, and to who you are, that’s great, but this is who the f*ck I am. Take it or leave it.

I know that no matter what happens, if I stay who I am, I will feel good about it, at the end of the day. The only thing that’s going to be constant in this ever changing world, especially in the start up space, is who I am.
*I am privileged to have been able to go to private schools during my elementary, high school and college days. I am not rich, in terms of money, but I consider myself very blessed to have all the things that I've received. This is my life, I'm not poor nor rich, I'm in the middle class, that's me. Another thing is that, I am interested in things that other women in their 30s are not interested in. Some of my interests include watching Dota lolz, playing wartune everyday, blogging, etc. This is who the f*ck I am.*

Saturday, November 11, 2017

Don't Worry, Be Happy

That was our bible study's topic last Thursday, November 9, 2017.

These were the verses we discussed:

1. Matthew 6:25-34

2. Joshua 1:8

3. Romans 12:2

In the Bible it said, do not be anxious, or do not worry. When we don't worry about anything, then we can be happy, we are filled with joy. That is a mark of a Christian, someone who is always full of love and joy.

I have a lot to improve on the love and joy part lolz. Anyways, here are my thoughts and what I want to remind myself in the future:

First one, the Matthew verses:

"Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you shall eat or what you shall drink, nor about your body, what you shall put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?
I do this, of course, who doesn't? but it shows that I don't trust that God will provide. This blogpost will be a reminder for me not to be anxious about my life. I know that God has an excellent plan for me. Life is more than food and the body is more than clothing. Although, I like to look good with my clothes and I love eating, I know that life and my body are more than those things. Life is about experiences, our relationships, our passions, our contributions, etc. Most of the time, I worry about my clothes, what I will wear to this event or something like that. So, this is a good reminder for me, not to worry about these (i feel are kinda) shallow things.
Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?
God loves the animals he created, but He loves us more, the people He created. We are more valuable and we will be given what we need and want as long as we are focused on His Kingdom first as verse 33 states.

And which of you by being anxious can add one cubit to his span of life?
Worrying or being anxious is a waste of time really, no one can change things only by worrying. We should have faith in God and trust in His promises. We cannot add one second to our life even if we try. I think God already knows what can happen to us in the future and when we will die and what He can do about it. I believe He's the only one who can decide to add to our span of life or not, that's why we pray.

I will not dwell on prayer or on the power of God and how it can affect our lives, since for me, God's battle with the devil is like a chess game, He can see the moves way ahead of His opponent for sure. He can use anyone of us to save souls. He just wants to see all His children in Heaven with Him but He will not override our free will.
Therefore do not be anxious, saying, `What shall we eat?' or `What shall we drink?' or `What shall we wear?' For the Gentiles seek all these things; and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things shall be yours as well.
Seek His Kingdom first, for me it means, for us to seek to be with God at the end of times, to be included in His Kingdom when this world ends and the New Jerusalem will be established. To be in His Kingdom means to have your name written in the Book of Life as mentioned in Revelation chapter 20. To be listed means to believe in Jesus, to have faith and to do good works. So, to seek His Kingdom first is to be centered in God, to do His 2 greatest commandments, to do good works. Maybe when I can do these things with joy, I will know that I have truly seek His Kingdom first.
"Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Let the day's own trouble be sufficient for the day.
Be in the present moment. As Chris Stefanick said, be all in. Our mind should be at the thing that we are doing right now. When we are at mass, we should not think about the food that we are going to eat after, or the problems we have or that person who irks us, our mind should be fully tuned in to God and the worship we are doing for Him. When we are doing something, our mind should be in it, not on other things.

Joshua 1:8

This book of the law shall not depart out of your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it; for then you shall make your way prosperous, and then you shall have good success.
The verse is referring to the book of the law in Moses time, but we discussed it in the Bible study, that it can also refer to the books of the Bible. When you meditate on the Bible verses and do what is written, you will prosper and you will have good success. I just love that!

Romans 12:2

Do not be conformed to this world but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that you may prove what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.
Renewal of your mind. It all starts with our mindset. Even during St. Paul's time, most people don't believe in the Christian God, that verse is still applicable to day and on the generations to come, do not be conformed to this world. I am a Christian and I should follow how Jesus lived and acted towards others. I have to work on that, because at this time, I really sometimes could care less if other people (who I don't like) will go to hell.

I don't have virtues, I'm not charitable. I don't even think that I am joyful everyday. I'm not yet centered on God. I'm a work-in-progress and I hope to renew my mind by attending our regular Bible studies and meditating on them after, in this blog. Also, by meditating on the Gospel and readings of Sunday Mass.

Wednesday, November 8, 2017


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I'm reading this ebook of Jonathan Milligan and I want to practice one of the 15 traits and that is consistency. He said to back down on the frequency and be more consistent instead. I tried to post every 3 days, that didn't work. Now, I want to try to publish blogpost consistently every Saturday.

However, this Saturday, November 11, me and my cousins are going to another mystery room lolz. If there's a will, there's a way! I have to finish the blogposts by Friday. Good thing there's no good event in wartune(my favorite online game). So, the time I spent there, I will spend on writing. I want to publish one blogpost each for the 4 blogs that I want to build up.

By the way, I think I'm going to cancel bitcoindotafan, the blog I tried to create at namecheap using wordpress. I'm not yet good at using and sucks. I'm going to build my blogs on blogger for now. I just have to back up all my posts since I don't own my blog and blogger/google may choose to close my blog anytime.

Almost everyone I listen to on podcasts or watched on youtube say the same thing, focus on one thing. Well, I'm focusing on this one thing: Blogging. I just can't focus on only one topic. I want to write about all the things I'm interested in, especially Dota, Bitcoin, Wartune and motivational things. So, that's what I'm going to do.

I want to try a lot of things, but I guess, since I've been blogging in this blog for almost a year and seen some visitors, I will try blogging for another year and practice, practice, practice what I learned from those blogging ebooks I bought on Kindle. Maybe I will see some improvement if I really put my heart and mind into it.

Another thing I want to remember from the ebook of Jonathan, he said: 
You have a gift. Your gift is needed in the world.
My bestfriend said I have good writing skills and that I should share what I wrote to others. I feel like maybe what I'm writing or going to write will have an impact on someone's life or maybe help one person someday. Maybe I should just think about that. I don't know.

Hmmmnnnn now that I think about it, there was a time during my elementary days, I think, I wrote a poem or something in english and no one believed that I wrote it, my brother is more intelligent than me, so one of the people who read it said in tagalog, but I'll say it in english here: "maybe her brother wrote it". I can't remember who exactly that person who said it was, but I can't forget what she said. That struck me, maybe I am not good enough. I don't know exactly what psychological effect that has on me, but maybe that self doubt I still have with me until now.

I remember another incident as I'm writing this lolz.. Maybe I can't blame her for thinking that, because they know that I am intelligent but not as intelligent as my brother, but I still was chosen as one of our class officers and was able to go to the student council. Then I was elected as Secretary of the student council. I couldn't tell them then, but I hated being a secretary and to be at meetings and writing stuffs. I love writing my own thing, not meeting notes lolz. I don't like my job too, but it is better than nothing plus it's the easiest job ever.

Anyways, what I'm trying to say is that, during the time that they elected me, I hated writing on the blackboard, so since I don't have the guts to tell them that, I pretended not to know the spelling of the name Catherine hahahahahah, I have to write every name of the nominees for the next position we were voting for. I don't want to be in front of everyone and writing names on a blackboard! I know how Catherine is spelled, but I pretended I didn't know what the next letters are after cat lolz and they ended up telling me the letters and since they couldn't take it anymore, they decided that I'm not fit for the job, but instead of replacing me, they decided to have two secretaries hahahahah. I can't forget that incident. So, maybe that prove that I'm not as intelligent as they think I was lolz.

Oh yeah, about the gift, I think that is my gift to the world, writing. I'm still afraid to share it or promote it to others, but I read this email from one of my favorite entrepreneur Ryan Daniel Moran and he said he was willing to suck more than anyone else. He is willing to feel insecure and willing to doubt himself. He even said that he feels insecure every time he emails his list.

(Although I don't read every single email especially when he has promos), I love reading his words because he seems honest. So when he said that he feels insecure when he sends those emails, I feel that maybe I can do it too, write the things I want to write, and promote it to others...

I know I'm not perfect and I'm not an expert in writing, but since reading that email, I feel like I want to do it too, to be willing to suck at writing. I guess I'm finally ready to eat the sh*t sandwiches lolz.

I have not yet finished this ebook, I'm at 14% at this time, I want to practice first these things I mentioned: Consistency and share my gift. :)

Sunday, November 5, 2017

My take aways from Neil Gaiman's speech Part 2

part 1 here

Most of the things here are the words of Neil Gaiman that I love to read over and over again. I only have a few comments lolz.
To continue:
"If you have an idea of what you want to make, what you were put here to do, then just go and do that… …Sometimes the way to do what you hope to do will be clear cut, and sometimes it will be almost impossible to decide whether or not you are doing the correct thing, because you’ll have to balance your goals and hopes with feeding yourself, paying debts, finding work, settling for what you can get.
Something that worked for me was imagining that where I wanted to be - an author, primarily of fiction, making good books, making good comics and supporting myself through my words - was a mountain. A distant mountain. My goal.

And I knew that as long as I kept walking towards the mountain I would be all right. And when I truly was not sure what to do, I could stop, and think about whether it was taking me towards or away from the mountain. I said no to editorial jobs on magazines, proper jobs that would have paid proper money because I knew that, attractive though they were, for me they would have been walking away from the mountain…"
I will use that technique from now on. I will imagine that what I want to be, is a distant mountain. Make it like my compass, to determine if the opportunities in front of me, is taking me towards the mountain or away from it.


When you start off, you have to deal with the problems of failure. You need to be thickskinned, to learn that not every project will survive. A freelance life, a life in the arts, is sometimes like putting messages in bottles, on a desert island, and hoping that someone will find one of your bottles and open it and read it, and put something in a bottle that will wash its way back to you: appreciation, or a commission, or money, or love. And you have to accept that you may put out a hundred things for every bottle that winds up coming back.
 This one I really have to learn and I guess writing on my blog and promoting these published blogposts, this is like a training for me, to learn to deal with failure or rejection that not every post or anything I write, not every bottle will come back to me. Not every post will be read by anyone, not everyone will like it, not everyone will care about the things I write.

However, in his speech, he mentioned the problem with success, that when you are successful, you will have to learn to say no, when the bottles you put out will all come back to you and you can't keep up with the demand for your attention. I haven't experienced that yet, but if I do, I hope I will remember his speech.

I hope you’ll make mistakes. If you’re making mistakes, it means you’re out there doing something.
I really have a fear of making any kind of mistake, well maybe to the extent that I would be tarnishing the name of my parents. I don't want to do that, but I would love to face my fear and make some mistakes that I could live with, to really prove to myself that I'm out there doing something. One of these days, I would have to publish everything that I write lolz.

Sunday, October 29, 2017

Philippians 4:6-8

"Have no anxiety at all, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, make your requests known to God. Then the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is gracious, if there is any excellence and if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things."
This was the 2nd reading last October 8, 2017 Sunday Mass. I love these verses!! 😍😍😍
I think I'm going to practice this, when I have anxiety, pray to God with thanksgiving and tell him my petitions/requests. Then focus on the following:
  • true
  • honorable
  • just
  • pure
  • lovely
  • gracious
  • excellent things
Or basically, if there is anything worthy of praise, that's what I'm going to think about. This means that I will no longer watch any news on television or read anything that has negative vibes. I am going to focus on what is positive, on the things that are happening that I like. Maybe I will ask myself this question: is this praiseworthy? no - then ignore , if Yes, then retweet (twitter), share (facebook and on my blog), make a video of it on youtube, promote it wherever I can.

Saturday, October 28, 2017

December 2017 Goals

I have goals that involve money, so I just have to save for them and buy them when I can such as
  • Piano Keyboard & Piano lessons
  • Human Heart Nature dealership discount
  • eBooks (amazon kindle)
  • Books (National Bookstore)
  • Tickets for Galaxy Battle for Dota tournament in January 2018
  • Meet my favorite TNC Pro Team
  • Librem 5 and Librem 13
It will take some time to save money since my salary is not that much, but I hope to buy these things next year.

For December, however, I would want to achieve something that doesn't necessarily have to involve money.
  • Publish one quality blogpost with my personal thoughts and share it on facebook 
  • Upload 30 personal videos on my youtube account and share them here on my blog

Friday, October 27, 2017

Ideal Money by John Nash Jr. Part 1

I found out about this in a tweet by one of the people I follow. I really love twitter because I can find new information that I haven't encountered here in my real life/offline conversations. My social circle doesn't include sophisticated financial/technological people, so I am grateful for having twitter that let me follow people who I can learn from.

The tweet I'm referring to had a link on an article that talked about ideal money. It also had a photo of Russell Crowe when he played the character of Professor John Nash Jr. in "A Beautiful Mind" movie. I watched that a few years ago and I loved it, it's an inspirational movie for me. So, when I saw the photo, I remembered the movie and the name of John Nash, so I got interested about the article and about the ideal money that Nash talked about.

Then I tweeted my favorite line in that medium article of rextar4444

Since he really recommended reading about the Ideal Money that Nash presented, I searched and found it online.


Now, I'm going to quote things Professor Nash Jr. said in this talk cited below:

Nash, John F. “Ideal Money.” Southern Economic Journal, vol. 69, no. 1, 2002, pp. 4–11. JSTOR, JSTOR,
At the start of his lecture, he said: "Money can be recognized as a technological development comparable to the wheel and of similar antiquity."
He then gave an example of EZ Pass system as a recent development in technology. In this instance, I already saw the comparison with the history of money, where people used metals, shells, before, then it became paper and then cards and now, it's going to be bitcoin using our cellphones or some other gadgets.

He clearly stated there in the beginning of his talk, that what he wanted to convey to the audience were "remarks about the history of monetary systems and about issues of comparative quality or merit, along with a specific proposal about how a system or systems of ideal money might be established and employed."

This is what I'm most interested in, his proposal on how systems of ideal money can be established. Actually, since I really believe in conspiracy theories, lolz, and since he didn't die of natural death, but in an "accident", I can't help but think that one of the reasons some people would want him dead is this proposal. But, then again, this lecture was given 14 years before his death, I don't know what he was working on in 2015.

Anyways, I'm writing this as I'm reading the article, so I have no idea how he's going to suggest to implement a system for ideal money.

Keneysian economists, Gresham's law, bad money, good money... the things I have no idea of, that I found in his introduction part. Well, at least I can understand the part where he stated his opinion about people being irrational when it comes to money. I agree that we are dependent on it. Can you go out of your house without money? Here in our city, I can walk around a few blocks, but if I want to go to a far part of the city, I have to pay the jeepney drivers, well I can choose not to pay them if I want to cause a scene or go to jail or something lolz. Or even if you have your own car, will the gas stations give you free gas? Will any establishment that sell food, drinks, clothes, give them to you for free? or in exchange for fruits or whatever you have to barter... I don't think so.

We need money, it's already part of our lives. Money is also technology, which means it can be improved. The time has come, with Bitcoin, there is going to be a new financial system...but there is going to be resistance from of course those people benefitting from the current debt system. Just thinking of the IMF and federal reserve, I've no idea how Bitcoin is going to win, but I believe God will make a way, if it's His will that Bitcoin succeeds. Even though I think most of the people in the Bitcoin space are atheists, it doesn't matter, God is right now watching us all and will help anyone who asks for it, God is here in the Bitcoin world, that's what I believe. I mean just like gravity, it's there whether you believe in it or not, if you walk off a rooftop, you're going to fall. Anyways, my thoughts ran away with me again lolz...


So, I tried to read Keynesian economics in wikipedia, didn't understand a thing, so I googled for a simpler explanation. Found this reddit ELI5
Understood it a little. That last part about government fiddling with private businesses ofc is not good. On to Gresham's Law...I am loving reddit now with its ELI5s lolz.

After the introduction, there are so many terms that are unfamiliar, but he explains it anyway, so I'll try to read this for 5 minutes straight and see if I understand some of it lolz.

He referenced a lot of books, I don't think I want to read lolz. Wikipedia says that utility in economics, represents satisfaction experienced by the consumer of a good... I understand that, but I don't understand what Prof. Nash Jr. meant by transfer of utility... transfer of satisfaction? Unless someone give me a concrete example of this, I don't think I will ever understand, so I'll skip it for now... I think most of the text I'm going to read will go over my head, so I'm just going to mention in part 2 of my blogpost, just the quotes and things I understand from his presentation.