Tuesday, September 19, 2017

My take aways from Neil Gaiman's speech Part 1

I found out about his commencement speech from Tim Ferris' blog, I searched for the transcript and found it here.

This is one of my favorite speeches. All the things he said resonated with me. I was listening and trying to write my favorite quotes from that speech so I can tweet them. It felt like I was writing the whole transcript lolz, most of the things he said are quotable.

Here are my thoughts on what he said:
I became a better writer the more I wrote, and I wrote some more - See more at: http://www.uarts.edu/neil-gaiman-keynote-address-2012#sthash.Q0v68h3U.dpuf

"I became a better writer the more I wrote and I wrote some more."

I want to be a good writer and I'm scared of people criticizing my work. I have to face that fear and just write what I want because in time and probably with constructive criticisms or feedbacks, I would become a better writer. I love writing and would love to share it to the world, but the thought of people disagreeing with me or not liking my work, scare me, I'm such a people pleaser and so I just have to remember the quote from Bill Cosby: key to failure is trying to please everybody. I know that the only one I have to please is God, but I also want to make my parents proud of me lolz, which I know maybe too late, but I still want to give them honor through what I hope to achieve in the coming years.

I don't know why but I really am optimistic. I just have to be like this frog and not listen to negative comments or opinions around me. Most people here just accept old age and the ailments it brings. Most people think that they won't be able to achieve anything anymore since they're over the age of 30-80... One of my goals is to be a fit 120 yr old (God-willing I get to live until that age) and be one of the movers and shakers in my country (of course on the way towards that I would already be helping my family and all my relatives financially).

I am really ambitious but that is only secondary to the ultimate goal of going to heaven when I die. I have high goals but I don't know how I'm going to achieve them. I have to get over my self-doubt. Maybe start with small wins then build on from that. Just take actions and get over my fear of failure. Actually, I don't see myself yet achieving my dreams, I mean how do I get from A to B? Plan it and take actions.

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The nearest thing I had (to a career plan) was a list I made when I was 15 of everything I wanted to do… I didn’t have a career. I just did the next thing on the list.
I wrote down my list. Lots of things I want to do, but I want to share them here.
  1. Have a blog that has 1,000 unique visitors per day (also earns me $ while making readers' lives better... I have yet to find out how to do this)
  2. Have my own TNC branch/franchise. (and other assets that I won't list here)
  3. Travel to the Holy Land. 
  4. Have 21 bitcoins saved up 
  5. Travel to Vatican 
  6. Have a financial course and lending system for my all my relatives.
  7. Help my mom start a charity for the community where we are living. 
I have other goals like learning to speak Japanese, mandarin and korean, learn how to play the piano, climb a mountain one time, meet bitcoin devs in person, get married in one of the churches in the Vatican, meet my favorite Catholic apologists in person, go to Alan Walker's concert, meet my favorite motivational speakers in person, go to 50 beaches in the Philippines, go to 50 beaches in the world, go to Disneyland, London, etc. But, for now I want to concentrate on the first one lolz.
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When you start out on a career in the arts you have no idea what you are doing.
This is great. People who know what they are doing know the rules, and know what is possible and impossible. You do not. And you should not. The rules on what is possible and impossible in the arts were made by people who had not tested the bounds of the possible by going beyond them. And you can.
I love the thought of doing the impossible, but I think subconsciously I have a limited mindset. I know I want to achieve something but I don't actually believe I can until I see someone else do it. I should take on the advice of Neil Gaiman and go beyond the bounds of the possible.

That's why I love watching our pinoy dota team TNC Pro Team trying to achieve something that no pinoy team have ever done before... get the aegis, win The International. That team inspire me, however they have not yet achieved their dream. I love being able to see their journey towards achieving their ultimate dream. For now, maybe to motivate me more I will have to watch/listen/read/be with people who have achieved what they want or maybe I should just remember the story of the man who broke the 4 minute mark, Roger Bannister.

 I know that Neil was talking about the arts but it can also be applied to other areas in life.

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I will write the next part of my thoughts on his speech in the next few weeks.
If you have an idea of what you want to make, what you were put here to do, then just go and do that. - See more at: http://www.uarts.edu/neil-gaiman-keynote-address-2012#sthash.Q0v68h3U.dpuf

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

The Logician

I took this personality test a couple of weeks ago. I don't know if this site is for real but the result was spot on lolz. I love taking personality tests!!! My result here.

They call the person with INTP-T personality = The Logician.

I = Introverted
N = Intuitive
T = Thinking
P = Prospecting
T = Turbulent

I love being rare hahahah, they said only 3% of the population has that personality, so I calculated it with 7billion people and 3% of that is 210million people lolz that's a lot. I remember when my brother asked me about this quiz on the house and the color and if you got the answer correctly you're part of the 1% gotta love those things! 😁

Anyways, I'm going to put this here as a bookmark so I can easily access it anywhere. Well, I can also put it in booky.io, but I think it's better here.

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

lost 2 lbs lolz

I only lost 2 lbs hahahaha well the good thing is that, I didn't gain a pound. I really should stop drinking soda and eating chocolates.

Monday, September 11, 2017

Stats and my home in Wartune


I'm going to post my current statistics here from now on, so that I can see my progress


General stats and page 1 of my inventory





Astrals

My home in wartune, very disorganized lol



My Fire Sylph


my eudaemon




Thursday, September 7, 2017

Woman in Love - My Take Aways

First thing that I took away from reading the ebook of Woman in Love is that there is hope for me. That there is a guy, someone like Katie's husband, Mark Hartfiel, who would put God in the center of their relationship, would appreciate her purity and be a really awesome guy to be with lolz.

I want someone like that. The two things I want most in a guy, that he makes God the center of our relationship and that he would appreciate and guard my purity. Katie helped in transforming Mark by praying for him. I will be transforming myself and my future husband through prayers too.

Second thing I took away is that there is a lot of wisdom from the teachings of the Catholic Church on Sex and True Love.

The Church is against contraception, explained in a chapter by Katie. One of the quotes i love from this chapter is:
Sex speaks a language, and the act itself shouts, “I want all of you and I give you all of me!” Contracepting within the sexual act says, “I want all of you, but not that part!… Contraception is, at its core, a deliberate violation of God’s design, not what the Lord created but rather an imitation of the real thing.
If you do not want the responsibility of having a child, then you shouldn't have sex. We are not animals that are just driven by chemicals in our bodies. We are humans and we can think about the consequences of our actions and not rely solely on instinct or what feels good at the moment.

The current culture shows that safe sex is to contracept. I just laugh at the idea. Aside from the fact that it's not 100% effective, the only safe sex you are going to have is to choose not to have it at all or to have it with the person who showed total commitment to you by marrying you, who vowed to be faithful to you, till death do you part.

I only believe in the Catholic Marriage, because that is the true commitment, unlike the civil weddings or any other marriages which you can divorce the one you promised to fully commit to all your life. How ironic is that lolz.

Anyways, the third thing is about chastity. The Church encourages Chastity. As the book stated, Pope Saint John Paul II (my favorite pope :) said that people who practices chastity, experience true love. That to me is really amazing.

I will practice self-control, love for myself and love for another. A deep understanding of sex. It is not only for our own pleasure, it is not only to show that I love my husband, it is not only to physically show my husband the matrimonial vows, but also to form another human being.

Everything here in this world was created by God, He also created sex. Wouldn't it be wise to follow His guidelines on it? Sex is a total giving of self to your husband/wife. I keep saying husband because I believe in the teaching that sex is exclusively for married couple. I have no idea how the current culture of pre-marital sex started, but I don't buy into that.

My top 3 FAVORITE QUOTES from the book

I have more on my notebook, but these are the ones I will share here and explain why I love them.

1. "This is a chance for you to be molded by your First Love, the Lord, and prepared for your Second Love, your future spouse."

I love that quote because it guides me to what I am going to do. I want to put God first in my life, but I don't feel like I'm on fire for Him. I'm not like the other people who talk about God all day. Not all my actions reflect God in them. I'm not that joyful lolz.

My first love would be Lord Jesus and my second love is my future husband. That would mold me from now on. Whenever I write those letters to my future husband, I am reflecting on my life and where it's leading me. I also realized how inadequate I am for the ideal husband that I am asking God. So, those letters and prayers that I'm doing for my future husband also influence me.

2. "It is important to embrace and recognize the difficulty, but simultaneously hold on to the promise."

This is really a valuable quote for me. An encouragement in one sentence. There is difficulty in holding on to what you believe in a society where most people don't share your beliefs. Some will say, why save yourself for that someone? I will advise them to read Woman in Love and they will know my reasons. I am going to hold on to the promise that God will give me the husband that is truly for me, who will love me for who I am, love me all his life, make commitment and always put God first in everything. I will hold on to that promise, no matter what the world throws at me.

Actually, in the past, I was easily irritated by people looking at me like I'm weird when they find out I'm not married at my age and of course even weirder when they find out I'm a virgin and the weirdest of all is that I'm nbsb lolz. But now, I've accepted myself for who I am and I am kinda enjoying this journey of trying to achieve financial freedom and not knowing who I'm going to marry, but I'm going to enjoy all the friendships that will come my way. :)

I remember those animes where the hero sets out to do something and on his way, he meets lots of interesting people, some are enemies, but most became friends. On my way to worldly success and on my way towards Heaven, I'm going to have cool friends.

3."At each instant that I would offer my Husband-To-Be to the Lord, I proceeded to pray also for Mark’s future wife. I wanted to be sure that I didn’t take any piece of Mark, emotionally or physically, that belonged to her."

When Katie and Mark were in a relationship, she didn't jumped to the conclusion that Mark is going to be her husband. So, she continued to pray for her husband-to-be and Mark's wife-to-be. Their relationship is what I'm hoping to have in my future boyfriend/s. That my boyfriend will not take me for granted and that he will want to preserve what is only rightfully for my husband.

I don't expect my first boyfriend to be the husband that I'm praying for. I am going to do what Katie did for Mark. To pray for my future husband and my boyfriend's future wife. We don't know where a relationship will lead, it may lead to the altar, or it will just end and you'll go on living separate lives.

What's important is that we want the best for ourselves and the best for the souls of those we will be in a relationship with.

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I have a lot more quotes, but I will leave it at that for now. Katie talked about various topics like modesty, natural family planning, sexually transmitted diseases, etc. The one I'm having the most problem with is modesty especially when it comes to clothes lolz. Even though I can understand the reason behind being modest, I still can't wrap my mind around the fact that men can so easily be tempted with indecent thoughts just by seeing a sexy woman.

I don't wear clothes just so I can attract attention from guys, I wear most of them because they are comfortable or when it's a party or something, I wear clothes that I look beautiful in or at least presentable so I won't embarrass myself in front of other people.

Although, I do practice some restraint a little, because here in our province, not many girls wear spaghetti strap blouses even in summer. I so want to wear spaghetti strap because it's comfortable and it's super hot in the summer, but then I would feel like a meat around predators or something, so I just settle for sleeveless blouses. I am not blind and I can't pretend not to notice that guys are looking at my breasts. As Katie mentioned in her book, I don't want to be the one causing any person to sin. But, when it comes to the beach, I don't know, I still have a goal of wearing a two piece bikini someday 😩😑.

I find it irritating that I have to look out for the other person when it comes to my fashion, but I also don't want to be like Cain when he asked God "Am I my brother's keeper?" because I already know the answer to that. We should all care for each other.

I'm going to read Woman in Love again in the future and maybe the modesty thing will sink in on me but for now, these are my thoughts about what Katie talked about.

Wednesday, August 30, 2017

2 Million Wartune Battle Rating

Finally got my mage to 2 million battle rating :)
I bought vip for 60 days.
I got a free 30 day spirit covenant, so that makes my daily grind in the game easier.

I have a new look for my wartune character, blonde hair :D


I have 142k matk, and only 85k for pdef, will need to improve that.
I have a sub-eudaemon, so troops are removed. 
So many things that I need to improve, i don't know which to do first lolz. 

I will just choose 3 things to focus on.
  1. Finish holy forge for all equipments
  2. Level 7 for all gems
  3. Upgrade Ice spirit fury

I will also apply this concept to my new blog:
3 things to do:
  1. transfer my old bitcoin and dota posts from my other blogs to this new blog
  2. write my about page
  3. decide on what days to consistently publish posts

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

Death Note Netflix Movie Review

***SPOILER ALERT***

I Like it

because it's not as gruesome as I imagined. I like that there are humurous dialogues between the demon and Light Turner. Plus I love the character of "L". Mysterious and a genius. I just love watching guys who are super smart and give effort for something they want to accomplish. L wanted to solve who "Kira" was and he successfully did, but he just doesn't know how Light did the killings. Kira was the name that Light chose to attribute the killings to.

I haven't seen the anime. I just saw parts of the Japanese movie for death note and it showed there were other death notes, it's not only one. So, I think there will be a sequel for this english movie.

Since I've never seen the anime series, I don't share the sentiments of the bad reviews for this movie in most youtube videos lolz. Well, maybe I will understand their side when I finally watch the anime.

I love that the movie doesn't have a dull moment, so I guess that's good editing. I was not bored and I did not I sleep on any part of the movie.

The last part of the movie where Light did not give the book to his girlfriend, then the girl took the book from him, and the demon or something, I don't know what it's called, waved his hands around destroying the ferris wheel where the couple was. The girl's death was already written by Light on the Death Note book. 

He doesn't want to give the book to her because he can see how she's drunk with power. She actually caused the deaths of several agents. She doesn't care for the life of the people as long as no one can find out who Kira is. In the movie, Kira was worshipped by some people because the criminals were killed and some have surrendered. They think that what Kira's doing is good for the community as a whole.

So, I like how this movie was made, but the underlying message in it, I don't like. However, my curiosity will get the better of me, and I will still watch sequels if they plan on releasing them, because I want to know how the characters will grow and if they can find a way to really get rid of death notes, because no one can act like they have the right to decide who lives or dies.

I believe that everyone deserves a second chance, that's why I am not for death penalty. That reminds me of Duterte and his war on "drugs" which is more like a war on the poor drug users or small time drug dealers. That is for another blogpost, coz to talk about forgiveness, crime, hurt, criminals, justice, and how God wants us to act will take me away from the topic of just doing a review for this Death Note movie.

I think I'm going to read the wikipedia of this series later just to find out what really happens in the end.

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I also would like to point out here, I already saw the trailers for Netflix' Death Note, but it is only from the tweet of Samson Mow that really tipped the scale for me and really got me curious what this death note is all about. He actually tweeted a gif of the anime, but that got me curious for the english movie version.

Netflix is already available for us here in the Philippines. You can check out Netflix.com and sign up for a free trial and pay as low as 370 pesos per month after the trial period. I chose that plan, the 370 one since I only need one screen for playing movies, my mom will watch with me. :)

I plan on watching old movies again in Netflix and write reviews on them.