Thursday, June 8, 2017

Thoughts on Making Time for what I want

So, I had this conversation with my BFF and she told me that if i wanted to write about bitcoin, i would have done it by now. My excuse was that I don't have time, but she answered that with: if I really wanted to do it, I would make time. lolz, she's right and I thought, why I still haven't published a blogpost on bitcoin. I'm afraid I might be wrong about something and someone calls me out to it and I'm afraid of criticisms and of people who disagree with me. Now, I realized my fixed mindset is kicking in.

It's better to be proven wrong and learn something , than to keep my thoughts to myself and not grow.

I love bitcoin, but when I don't know everything about it, I feel like I'm not writing a good article about it. I'm trying to be perfect, I'm trying to write a perfect blogpost when I should just be focusing on actually starting to publish something on a topic that I love reading and talk about.

I will have to look at this as a work in progress. I don't know everything there is to know about bitcoin and I think I will never will since they add more things in the bitcoin space everyday and I want to learn the new words/terms/concepts.

I want to be able to explain bitcoin in a simple and short way and I still haven't been able to do that, but I think maybe there are other people who already have thought of that and I'm gonna google them.

I feel like this is an obstacle that I have to overcome and be free to be myself. Be authentic. I like the quote "I'd rather be hated for who I am than be loved for who I'm not". But, it seems I don't really practice it, sometimes I'm a people pleaser.

I have to be free from the shackles of fear of judgement. When I put my thoughts out there, there's bound to be people who will agree and people who won't. I can be wrong sometimes and I have to accept that, but I guess this fear of being wrong was so embedded to me that I'm so afraid to be wrong on something. I have to accept that I'm not perfect and I can be wrong sometimes.

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