Wednesday, November 8, 2017


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I'm reading this ebook of Jonathan Milligan and I want to practice one of the 15 traits and that is consistency. He said to back down on the frequency and be more consistent instead. I tried to post every 3 days, that didn't work. Now, I want to try to publish blogpost consistently every Saturday.

However, this Saturday, November 11, me and my cousins are going to another mystery room lolz. If there's a will, there's a way! I have to finish the blogposts by Friday. Good thing there's no good event in wartune(my favorite online game). So, the time I spent there, I will spend on writing. I want to publish one blogpost each for the 4 blogs that I want to build up.

By the way, I think I'm going to cancel bitcoindotafan, the blog I tried to create at namecheap using wordpress. I'm not yet good at using and sucks. I'm going to build my blogs on blogger for now. I just have to back up all my posts since I don't own my blog and blogger/google may choose to close my blog anytime.

Almost everyone I listen to on podcasts or watched on youtube say the same thing, focus on one thing. Well, I'm focusing on this one thing: Blogging. I just can't focus on only one topic. I want to write about all the things I'm interested in, especially Dota, Bitcoin, Wartune and motivational things. So, that's what I'm going to do.

I want to try a lot of things, but I guess, since I've been blogging in this blog for almost a year and seen some visitors, I will try blogging for another year and practice, practice, practice what I learned from those blogging ebooks I bought on Kindle. Maybe I will see some improvement if I really put my heart and mind into it.

Another thing I want to remember from the ebook of Jonathan, he said: 
You have a gift. Your gift is needed in the world.
My bestfriend said I have good writing skills and that I should share what I wrote to others. I feel like maybe what I'm writing or going to write will have an impact on someone's life or maybe help one person someday. Maybe I should just think about that. I don't know.

Hmmmnnnn now that I think about it, there was a time during my elementary days, I think, I wrote a poem or something in english and no one believed that I wrote it, my brother is more intelligent than me, so one of the people who read it said in tagalog, but I'll say it in english here: "maybe her brother wrote it". I can't remember who exactly that person who said it was, but I can't forget what she said. That struck me, maybe I am not good enough. I don't know exactly what psychological effect that has on me, but maybe that self doubt I still have with me until now.

I remember another incident as I'm writing this lolz.. Maybe I can't blame her for thinking that, because they know that I am intelligent but not as intelligent as my brother, but I still was chosen as one of our class officers and was able to go to the student council. Then I was elected as Secretary of the student council. I couldn't tell them then, but I hated being a secretary and to be at meetings and writing stuffs. I love writing my own thing, not meeting notes lolz. I don't like my job too, but it is better than nothing plus it's the easiest job ever.

Anyways, what I'm trying to say is that, during the time that they elected me, I hated writing on the blackboard, so since I don't have the guts to tell them that, I pretended not to know the spelling of the name Catherine hahahahahah, I have to write every name of the nominees for the next position we were voting for. I don't want to be in front of everyone and writing names on a blackboard! I know how Catherine is spelled, but I pretended I didn't know what the next letters are after cat lolz and they ended up telling me the letters and since they couldn't take it anymore, they decided that I'm not fit for the job, but instead of replacing me, they decided to have two secretaries hahahahah. I can't forget that incident. So, maybe that prove that I'm not as intelligent as they think I was lolz.

Oh yeah, about the gift, I think that is my gift to the world, writing. I'm still afraid to share it or promote it to others, but I read this email from one of my favorite entrepreneur Ryan Daniel Moran and he said he was willing to suck more than anyone else. He is willing to feel insecure and willing to doubt himself. He even said that he feels insecure every time he emails his list.

(Although I don't read every single email especially when he has promos), I love reading his words because he seems honest. So when he said that he feels insecure when he sends those emails, I feel that maybe I can do it too, write the things I want to write, and promote it to others...

I know I'm not perfect and I'm not an expert in writing, but since reading that email, I feel like I want to do it too, to be willing to suck at writing. I guess I'm finally ready to eat the sh*t sandwiches lolz.

I have not yet finished this ebook, I'm at 14% at this time, I want to practice first these things I mentioned: Consistency and share my gift. :)

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