Beautiful Things

I love the melody of this song by Benson Boone. I looked for the lyrics coz I want to learn how to sing it, but when I read the lyrics, I changed my mind. I don't want to ask God to not take away the beautiful things I have, because that meant I made those things higher than God. It's God that I should worship and love first not anyone or anything else. I don't want to think of myself as more intelligent, more loving, more knowledgeable than God, to even think of telling God what to do. I don't agree with the message of the song so I no longer want to sing it even though I really love the melody and the high notes. 

I'm just writing this as a reminder to myself to not make people or things my idol. I'm referring to the catholic definition of the word. Idol meaning treating that person or thing as God, as the one who is the most important in your life. I love my mom and brother and all my relatives and friends, but I never put them as number one in my life. I like to think that I put God first and everyone else second. I pray for safety for all the people I love and I will be hurt if anything happens to them. However, I'm at this point in my faith, that I will not question the wisdom of God no matter what He allows to happen. I am worried sometimes of course. I try to say thank you to God every night when I go to sleep that we are all well, that we were kept safe on that day. 

Although there was that one time that I made someone an idol and I wasn't aware of it. I was so in love with him, he became the center of my day, I would always be thinking about him. What was he doing, who he was with, what he's thinking, but the relationship was not ideal. Then I made the mistake of not drinking my meds and the breakdown happened, maybe it was a blessing in disguise because after I got out of that shelter (that's what we call the place where I was in for 6 months January 17 to July 17, 2023, I got out on July 18), I decided to stop my connection with him. If I was important to him, he would do something concrete. There were times I missed him, but after two years, no message on my email or phone, I think I was right to think of myself first. 

The song talks about the fear of losing that girl that he loves. I really don't like a guy who doesn't have God at the center of his life. His fear is normal but I don't want to be like him, I want to be like Job in the Bible. To be able to accept everything that happens and not lose faith nor blame God for anything.

I love this talk from Chris Stefanick about spiritual detachment.

I also love the comment from one of the viewers:

I'm going to repeat the last line here because that's also what I will regret to see those times that I didn't share His Love with those He put in my life.